He could betray himself,
Fall into a ferris wheel of love and hate,
Dwell into great heights of filthy pleasures.
But his wound cannot bleed forever.
His name won't be remembered as one of many,
He will not be a hunting trophy.
His face won't be lost in a sea of empty people.
He'll probably do it anyways,
Because he loves to hate himself,
But the thought of rebellion made him want to smile.
Doped up out of my mind
Brain fried from the inside out
There is no reason for this masquerade
On the verge of breaking down
My walls are crushed
Nerve attack, panic attack
Failed survival, senseless resistance
I have found my place
But I am not whole tonight
It's the Feeling You Get When You Fall In Love by UrHobbo, literature
Literature
It's the Feeling You Get When You Fall In Love
I feel trapped in this castle,
Its is my sanctuary.
Where everything beautiful exists,
As an attire of perfect chaos and unspeakable bliss.
But I long to escape,
Live the dreams my heart holds,
Hide in something new,
Feel alive in someone's arms.
I won't be around for some time
Running on default settings
Automated routine
Systematic reactions
Preset feelings.
I'll be away for a while
Hiding my mind from my heart
Numbing my body from my mind
Trying to escape the fire inside.
Don't look for me
I won't be here
Not far away, but somewhere else
I'll look at the world from a distance
But I will not act.
I won't be myself anymore
It's useless to come find me
Something I can't comprehend has got a hold of me.
I'm crumbling
I'm barely holding up
But there's no pain, no regrets
There's only a sinking void left
I'm trying to keep it all together
Shut my eyes and pretend I see no evil
Because I never could have asked for more
But it's never enough for this blackhole
I'm ugly, I'm angry
I'm jealous, I'm stupid
I'm a loser, and i hate it
I'm fragile, I'm broken
I'm out of time, I'm out of hope
I'm scared, and I can't help it
Nothing feels right anymore
But I've got to be strong
So please,
Keep me happy baby
At last something
Something to really clinge onto
Something to chase away the dark
and numb my pain
Something worth living for
Something to cherish with a new found heart
Hopefully something great
Something truly beautiful for the both of us
Something we'll carry with us and rejoice in
Something we'll never forget, never regret
Something that'll make our bodies quiver
to the choirs of love
I hope it's worth something to you
Because I can't keep up without something
After so many times crying
I feel like dying
If I'm not worth your loving
Am I worth living?
Something inside of me is breaking
Every part of me is cracking
Nobody ever told me that love burned
But now I know it burns badly
I'm a jealous man and I won't deny it
I'm a dying teenager
I hope you see that
I just wanted you to love me
But you prefered him over me
And in the end
I don't feel like living anymore
I loved you
You killed me
He could betray himself,
Fall into a ferris wheel of love and hate,
Dwell into great heights of filthy pleasures.
But his wound cannot bleed forever.
His name won't be remembered as one of many,
He will not be a hunting trophy.
His face won't be lost in a sea of empty people.
He'll probably do it anyways,
Because he loves to hate himself,
But the thought of rebellion made him want to smile.
Doped up out of my mind
Brain fried from the inside out
There is no reason for this masquerade
On the verge of breaking down
My walls are crushed
Nerve attack, panic attack
Failed survival, senseless resistance
I have found my place
But I am not whole tonight
It's the Feeling You Get When You Fall In Love by UrHobbo, literature
Literature
It's the Feeling You Get When You Fall In Love
I feel trapped in this castle,
Its is my sanctuary.
Where everything beautiful exists,
As an attire of perfect chaos and unspeakable bliss.
But I long to escape,
Live the dreams my heart holds,
Hide in something new,
Feel alive in someone's arms.
I won't be around for some time
Running on default settings
Automated routine
Systematic reactions
Preset feelings.
I'll be away for a while
Hiding my mind from my heart
Numbing my body from my mind
Trying to escape the fire inside.
Don't look for me
I won't be here
Not far away, but somewhere else
I'll look at the world from a distance
But I will not act.
I won't be myself anymore
It's useless to come find me
Something I can't comprehend has got a hold of me.
I'm crumbling
I'm barely holding up
But there's no pain, no regrets
There's only a sinking void left
I'm trying to keep it all together
Shut my eyes and pretend I see no evil
Because I never could have asked for more
But it's never enough for this blackhole
I'm ugly, I'm angry
I'm jealous, I'm stupid
I'm a loser, and i hate it
I'm fragile, I'm broken
I'm out of time, I'm out of hope
I'm scared, and I can't help it
Nothing feels right anymore
But I've got to be strong
So please,
Keep me happy baby
At last something
Something to really clinge onto
Something to chase away the dark
and numb my pain
Something worth living for
Something to cherish with a new found heart
Hopefully something great
Something truly beautiful for the both of us
Something we'll carry with us and rejoice in
Something we'll never forget, never regret
Something that'll make our bodies quiver
to the choirs of love
I hope it's worth something to you
Because I can't keep up without something
After so many times crying
I feel like dying
If I'm not worth your loving
Am I worth living?
Something inside of me is breaking
Every part of me is cracking
Nobody ever told me that love burned
But now I know it burns badly
I'm a jealous man and I won't deny it
I'm a dying teenager
I hope you see that
I just wanted you to love me
But you prefered him over me
And in the end
I don't feel like living anymore
I loved you
You killed me
I wish I know when you mean to kiss me,
And when you are simply reacting to me.
Whether you mean to stir up my inside,
Or if you just want to touch my hand.
I thought of all this when I woke up today,
Thinking of all the beautiful things you are everyday...
And as I tried to tame this feeling in my chest,
I realized that an hour has already gone by.
She always fell for boys who needed saving. by sasunaru16, literature
Literature
She always fell for boys who needed saving.
She always fell for boys who needed saving.
Giving them kisses in the dark
to numb their headache from
drinking too much and yet
not enough to kill lust.
She was always adored by boys, who,
if given the chance, would rebuild
the world for her.
But she wanted to be the heroine
and refused to see
she needed saving, too.
You ever get so angry that you stop breathing?
Body won't stop shaking
The heat is overwhelming
Inside you're growling
Desperately trying to hold back
Your hands instinctively clench, teeth grind
The thought of blood brings the beast to life
Run, hide
It'll kill you before you can apologize
Stop the sick fantasies before they come alive
Don't let the demented smile show on the outside
Fight the monster
Nobody can know who you really are
The pleasure you receive for ending a life
What kind of heartless being deserves happiness,
When they survive on excruciating pain?
What kind of soulless thing deserve love,
When they're comp
The Calm Before The Storm - Prologue - Part 1 by LordPokington, literature
Literature
The Calm Before The Storm - Prologue - Part 1
In the beginning there was nothing, but silence. Then came "The Thunder" and with it came into the world 7 entities. Gods so Powerful that they created "The Thunder" to bring themselves into being. They are the "Stromdeimos" or Storm Gods.
The seven gods, in their infinite power, created a planet they would call "Stromgera" or Eye of the Storm, on the exact site of the Thunderstrike. There they seeded life into the cooling earth with enchanted stones that absorbed the remnant power from the world's forming and grew into a forest of living rock.
They th
I want to absorb your tears with my chest,
Taste the saltiness with my heart,
Leaving it to dry where it is,
And feel the warmth of you in my arms.
I took off my shirt for you to blow your nose,
So I can hear you breathe out in relief.
And it comes in such small warm gasps,
That I wish to collect them all just to keep you from the cold.
And tomorrow we are going to wake up and just be friends again.
There will be no more tears or warmth of unshed love.
So I feel I should be the one crying now,
Because I could not have loved you more.
I don't have words to explain why I refused to be yours,
Childishly hiding in loneliness instead of embracing the heart connection between us.
I think a lot of people have made bad choices when sad.
If not, I guess it was just me at every start.
Ultimately I think giving of trust opens the door to discovering the truth.
I did that each time I came upon you, love.
But comes away learning again and again that...
Everyone shows their true colors in five years.
The healing child is now broken
Once again in a world she truly belongs
Good? I never was
After you hurt people once
You feel as if you deserve no happiness
Or love
I'm suffocating under my own faults
My guilt rising above
I didn't think I'd ever wish to be gone again
Escape into my own personal hell
Have I really been helpful for selfless cause
Or is it just to make up for pain I've caused?
I don't know who I am
All I know is the truth is I don't belong
I'm a fake optimist
I can't even think like one
No, I don't have the will to be strong
The darkness begins to spread around
All forms of light nowhere to be found
Couldn't
I know you'll never read this, but I miss you. I miss all the good memories we had. Sleeping next to each other at a friend's party. Playing footsies then going to the movies. Sleeping over at your house. You trying to teach me how to dance. Almost kissing at church, in the dark with my head laying on your legs and many more. Our promises to each other. Your hugs are something I cannot live without. It's been nearly two months without you, but it still pains me. The hardest thing I ever had to do was walk away from our friendship. To end it all for selfish reasons. I couldn't take being jealous anymore. Watching you go for guys that would nev
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Things about me:
1. I'm a dopey, and I ain't really proud of myself for that.
2. I have serious issues telling the truth to people, because